* lyn : )

♥ Monday, September 25, 2006 ♥

7:08:00 PM

whenever i felt like giving up on certain things , my mind never fail to recall the msg which someone sent to me . it was like to look on the brighter side of everything , no matter how bad my life is , there's still hope . but ever since o6/o7 , somehow i lost my hopes in everything . nothing seems pleasing enough for my eyes , nothing seems appealing to me .. even food . frens doesnt seem like they are bothered wif me . and i became an irritatant towards myself too .

let me tell u , it wasnt easy to get back to ur feet if u had fell down .. especially when u fell into the abyss of darkness . ur life suddenly grew gloomy . it was as if u are stuck inside ur own dreams and no one could wake u up . or was it ur own psychological thinkings that refused to wake up and face wif the reality ? i dun quite noe .

went wif chua to ps to get present for mum and ivan . then we took 36 back to airport to study physics . the journey was a tough one man . there was these milk stain smell which smelled horribily . then we were super full la . and i nearly vomitted in the bus .

these journey brought back many memories actually . i rmb abt tt day when we took bus 36 and i got con taking tt bus cuz it was a loop bus . yeah . and then went back to plaza sing which i tink i looked malu la . =( bus 34 also .. the journey was exactly the same when we used to b tgt . just that this time was esther instead of you-know-who .

with comparision wif the past and current , not only i've lost an another-half , i lost a confidant . it's hard to speak up ur mind towards ppl u will see everyday . but he's different . cuz we often meet up during weekends and we texted each other like everyday .

overall , i jus miss u like hell lots la .
but i noe , u'll never come by here anymore
cuz my blog , just like me , had already been thrown (chuck) aside by u alr .

i dun wan apologies .
i dun wan promises .
all i wanted is to ask u tt question i've been thinking all along .. not writing it out la !
whether u've ever truely love me anot . tt's all i wanna know .
QUITE PRODUCTIVE TODAY .
studied physics for like nearly 2.5 hours ? :P